I am really anguished today……

just learned that there is going to be another series of tests out here at my office to prove if i am ‘competent enough’…..gimme a break guys..

there already have been loads of tests out here, and they still want more. So I guess its high time I barfed out my opinion on these.

Y’know when I was in college, I loathed tests.They do nothing but test your cramming ability. And the toppers of these tests generally are the dumbest guys around when it comes to implementation. Not always though, but mostly. One of my prime reasons for doin a job right after college is that I HATE TESTS. But now things are back to square one. Tests & more tests again….the best part being now I am paid to answer these….

I guess our managers like to see how good we are. I think that should show from our work. But by taking these tests they are simply stressing us guys out. Rather than thinking of any innovations that we might be able to bring, all we think of is the test scheduled n some future date. The test results do more bad than good to the team’s morale….after all everyone won’t get good marks, and those who don’t feel degraded.

don’t know what this world is coming to……hell …. as though i give it a damn.

Sometimes by looking at the state of Indian democracy, I really wonder why the maoists in Nepal are fighting for it in the first place?

India is a great democracy. Elections are held freely, fairly here. Agreed, though with a pretty heavy heart. In the next few days, Indian democracy will be tested for these virtues when the states of Bihar, Haryana go on polls. It is common knowledge in India that any election that is held in Bihar is rigged to a great extent. Although the EC tries its best to ensure a fair election, things are not so great. Its pretty simple, either you vote for party x or you are dead! Or something like, if you poll 100 bogus votes then you go to sleep with a full stomach that night.

In every industry, customer is treated as God. You are answerable to your customer. I guess the same logic must apply to the politicians as well. After all, it is the public that elects them, that puts them on those chairs(or kursis). The actual reflection of this committment is the Indian parliament, but by looking at the proceedings I wonder if these people are representing the people who elected them or are they simply fighting for their own ideologies, putting self before nation. Although this may sound hasrh, but the arliament sessions have become a mockery of the Indian democracy.

Someone must do something, rather everyone must do something. Only then there is hope.

Otherwise the day is not far when the democracy will crumble, fall apart, & we’ll all be at the mercy of the, hell what’s the big difference anyways……..

huh..well..here’s a topic close to my heart. What is love? is it something that makes you into an object that can be manipulated by circumstance, fate, chance, or by the person you love? Or is it some great feeling that leads to total bliss? I don’t know. Well I have fallen in & out of it, but the experience left me poorer. I learnt nothing new, lost my heart, gave away my freedom & got pain in return. Its easy to set your loved one free, its hard to let go. You try to find every small thread of hope & try clinging to it, but when it breaks you still don’t let go, you look out for another thread.

I have read a lot of opinions about love, have my own two-piece to add to it, but don’t know if its all true. Well love is blind, for that matter, but it also makes the lovers blind. Blind to the reality around them. And as with reality, it always hits you hardest at the worst time. Life really knows to play mean..

Well I know I sound very pessimistic, low , whatever..but i m trying to forget, trying not to hold on….

May God help me. and the countless others who have been in similar situations.

just to quote calvin before signing off

“Your heart falls into your stomach & splashes your innards. This condensation shorts the circuits to your brains and you get all woozy. Your mouth disengages and you babble like cretin until she leaves.” - opinion on love

signing off ……

Hi all

This is my first in a series of coherent ramblings. I am pretty new to writing a blog, but guess I’ll learn as time passes by. Something bout myself. I am Ashish, working as a software engineer, loving Calvin ‘n Hobbes, Formula 1 cars, reading Dan Brown, and from now on, writing blogs!!

Lets see how this works out….

Signing off for now..

@$#!$#